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Wednesday, 29 August 2012, 18:13
catorce
I was kind of flailing around for an hour in which you told me you'll wake up an hour later after having decided that we're going to go out on Friday after school. >////> Anyway. My school ends at around.. 1pm, I think? We could probably go have lunch or dunch-- (cough dunch = dinner + lunch) Stuff. kdahdjaklgdajgda. I can't go STGCC, unfortunately. ._. Uhhm. Where do you want to go? Like, where is convenient for me and you. And stuff. Yeah. AND I UPDATED SO THERE. AHA. >:D okay homeowkr nessur stop staring at the jar she gave you amg Sunday, 26 August 2012, 10:06
trece
YOU JUST LEFT ME HANGING THERE OKAY. I DIDN'T EVEN FINISH TALKING AND THEN YOU WENT ALL 'FLIGHTMODEON'. -FLIPS BED. I LEFT YOU LIKE 3 MESSAGES, OKAY. GO CHECK THEM OUT AND REPLY. -HANDS ON HIPS. AND HAVE FUN AT CHURCH I HAVE TUITION TO GO TO. JEEZ. -HAIRFLIP. CAN I PUNCH YOU. LIKE IN THE SHOULDER. Saturday, 25 August 2012, 23:18
doce
Calm down, liebling. Things will happen, mistakes will form. Calm down. Don't hate yourself, liebe. oryou'llenduplikeme,selfhating. Ich liebe dich, liebling. And I will always do so until you love yourself so there! 25 more days. Yes that was a typo. No, I'm totally a clingy shit <3 I'm still sick. No fever tho. Liebe, continue talking to me, I don't care if you're going to step all over my feelings because I don't currr. I'm a selfish creature as well, baiting you with all the 'ich liebe dich's and the 'liebe's. I can see Gan saying it, heh. Have fun @ church tomorrow, liebling. , 09:26
once
26 more days to go. I'm doing my homework right now. I'm glad I didn't take my medicine yesterday, just to be able to fall asleep. There's four tests next week, I don't look forward to them much. Physics, Chemistry, History and Social Studies. I'm kind of tired. After all, it's only 9:25 in the morning. Mm. Sorry about yesterday. You're trying to keep to your media fast, and I was being a clingy shit. At least I got to talk to you. Feel so much better now, heh. Meh, Skype won't open on this stupid Mac. Oh well. Thursday, 23 August 2012, 18:26
diez
I don't know, I'm rather acting like a drug addict forced to rehab. ... It hurts here too, but you're dealing with it better than me, who just sits in the corner of her room and stare emptily into the air. And constantly glancing at my phone as if you'll reply any second. Well, I want to become, someone greater, someone kinder, someone nicer. /paps. I see. Then I'll have to make Mr Chauncey get his head out of the wishing well, after all, he's just a headmate, I can easily shove him in the bin. Pfft. -cruelcruelcruel. Hey, you already know about the darker side of me, so it's fair, I guess. ...I don't know what I'll do. ..Please don't lie to me? ...I'll probably continue Valaz and do Green-Red for you. At this rate, I don't think I'm getting over you. Yeah. ...25 more days, mein liebling, and I can stop behaving like this. ...It's so hard being happy sometimes. I wish you would turn on your phone. I miss you. Like a lot. Wednesday, 22 August 2012, 20:42
nueve
imissyousomuch fuck 29moredays fuckfuckfuck idon'twanttogotoschooltomorrow iwanttosleep mythroathurts mynosehurts my chest hurts imissyou , 18:47
ocho
Ich liebe dich. Te amo. Je'taime. I love you. I know you're feeling frustrated and angry with yourself, and also with other people as well. Alis, you calm down before Chance decides to black-rom you, and it's kind of stupid for my newest headmate to start black-romming your headmate, but whatever. ...We can't do a thing about people's opinions, unfortunately. But please, don't cut yourself. You make my heart go dokidoki too, even if you're not around. I didn't go to school today. My flu became a fever. I spent the entire day thinking about you. ...Yeah. I hate myself, because... I'm not who I want to become. I may come off as proud for myself, but the truth is, I'm really disgusted by myself. How easy the lies can slip off my lips without a care. How easy I can insult people. I love you, and I'll not stop doing so, mein liebling. Yes, Alis, I accept your red-font arse as well, Chance is feeling black-red for you, gott knows what the hell is wrong with him. Tuesday, 21 August 2012, 15:23
seis
...It's funny how you told me to take care of myself, but I currently have a flu right now, and a I don't even know why, just that my nose and throat are both hurting a lot. I couldn't concentrate in class today. Your name kept cropping up in my mind and honestly, I was rather impatient with other people as well. And yes, your Spidey-Senses went off, because I did send you a text yesterday. Well, and one in the morning just now. ...Please don't lie. There's one reason out of many others why I hate myself, because I'm a liar. I lie to everyone, and if I have not lied to said person, I'll end up lying to them. It was really cold in the morning. I went to borrow Alice today, in the school library. This is probably the fifth time I'm borrowing it, because all the check-outs but one of the book was mine. It's the only copy in the school library too, and I happened to be the one who helped them choose to buy it, being in the Media Resource Library CCA and all. And well, Pharos later turns into a hot guy. Ryoji Mochizuki. Mochizuki for Full Moon, Persona 3 kinda revolved around Moon phases. oh well. I'll most probably be updating this last post, until tomorrow. Liebe dich/ Monday, 20 August 2012, 20:06
cinco
I stopped crying. I'm more coherent now. I don't like how we have to interact indirectly. But it's your choice. I can't do a shit about it, unfortunately. Like how I can't do a shit about your mum not supporting same-sex, like how I can't do a shit about the people I hate in school, like how I can't do a shit about this because it involves you as well. ...Sigh. It's your choice. ...I can't do anything. And I'm not going to bother keeping my hopes up anymore. They tend to get crushed more often. I don't know. I want to talk to you too. But you won't reply. I'll probably spam you. Everyday. Then at least I can pretend that you're replying back. Through invisible texts. I like invisible texts. Makes me feel nice. Maybe after a month, we can go eat sushi together. Wait, I have examinations. Ah, fuck. , 19:29
cuatro
then suddenly I start crying because well, because ich liebe dich. i don't even think i'm pissed at you i'm just angry because i can't do a thing about this and i have to wait a month i never liked waiting but i'm currently not functioning anymore so sudden suddenly trainwreck i don't even know how to react i even ate half-cooked noodles because i couldn't think idk fuck you know i wrote this thing for vergil to gannet and i really want to just say come home gan but i can't because everyone's going to end up leaving me everyone will end up leaving because what we humans do best is to die , 18:02
tres
but my hands won't do it fff... why do i even bother screw it all fuck i don't i don't want this i don't want anything i can even give up cheesecake i fucking love cheesecake, and i will even fucking give up cheesecake because idgaf anymore time waits for no one you can't plug your ears and cover your eyes it'll soon deliver all of us to the same end thank you pharos thank you so fucking much gott ich liebe dich but obviously you need more time and i'm not as patient as i seem to be hah why do i even bother anymore its going to be the same cycle all over again fine i'll move on if i move on this won't hurt anymore so i'll move on the lump in my throat really has to go so do the wetness in my eyes and rolling down my cheeks why am i even counting in spanish i hate languages so fucking much , 17:54
dos
I just punched my wall. Yaaaaay. ...what fire flower i don't even think shit fuck i don't even know what to type the song doesn't make me happier it makes me fucking cry shut up glutamine shut the fuck up Saturday, 18 August 2012, 21:36
uno
Please wait 'til the day When we can bloom spectacularly in the night sky. "I'm glad I could love you from the start." Is what I'll sing to the sky.' -Fire Flower. I've been thinking for quite a while, ever since yesterday. I've been thinking, and I have yet to come to a conclusion. What I've got from my thinking is only this: I really want to hold her hand, at least once. ...It's hilarious how my mind refuses to move on, even if I really want to forget. I'm smiling now, as I typed. I loved the last few weeks. It has been so long since I smiled so much, since someone had made me so happy. I'm still happy, even though it hurts slightly. Because I know, no matter what, she'll be the one who'll make me smile so much. And I want her to continue making me smile. These tears that are flowing down my cheeks aren't of sadness, they're of happiness. It's been so long, that's why it hurts so much. All I could think the entire day was that: I really, really want to hold her hand. I feel so happy, knowing that she'll be there, even if people left. Heh. I love you, but I shan't say it anymore, because you and I need to move on, and clinging to the past does nothing but damage. I'm still refusing to grow up though. Growing up sucks, so I'll remain forever young! 'Till the end of time, perhaps. ~Vergil |
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